Oh, and he said he needs to know that I'm not harboring any secret hopes that this can change. He said, "Of course you could always lie," and I said, "Yes, I could."
The last thing I said was that I believe happiness is a decision and I'm going to choose to be happy, that I won't be bitter, but that as big a heart as I have, I'm not sure I'll ever forgive him.
And despite all that, I am, indeed, feeling bitter and hurt. I know I'll feel better, but holy cow, it's hard to believe this can get any worse. And he's not even seeing anyone. Yet.
