Oh morgan, I feel your pain!!! I have been so down on myself after finding out H cheated. OW is teeny tiny, perfect body, cute hair, etc. I am in the process of losing weight that I had started for myself (and finding out about the A has done wonders for the weight loss, but not the right way to do it) but I will never be that tiny and tight. I feel so....thrown away...tossed aside. I am struggling with self confidence issues (always have, but like you, I always thought I *had* H, no matter what). SIGH Last night, I was thinking "I am cotton granny panties and she is a silk thong". Its funny, but not really, you know?
Last night H confessed that he is terrified that if he leaves I will start something legal and try to take our money, the house, and the girls from him. I told him I would NEVER mess with the girls happiness, or for that matter that money WE have made TOgether. He said "But I never thought I was the kind of person that would cheat, and look at me". UGH
And PS I miss H's physical body being around me. Not even in a sexual way, just sitting with him, brushing up against him, that kind of thing. I am very empty...and very lonely.
