Thanks, ISLH and Cinders, for your thoughts and prayers for S32. I would be nice if I could make the trip but I am doubtful that I can swing it. The trip to Virginia when he was diagnosed really put me over the top for debt. I have taxes due next month and don't know where the money will come from for those. I am praying and I know that the Lord will provide.
H came to pick S17 up for dinner yesterday. I did a 180 in I went outside and gave H some mail that came here for him. Usually I send it will one of our Ss. We chatted and I was happy and relaxed. When we were talking I was looking him straight in the eyes and he wasn't looking away. That is an improvement.
I spent 4 hours cleaning out S20's room since he went back to school. I was a mess but will now be easier to keep clean.
Have a great weekend.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.