It is really hard. I was at a function last night to watch my Oldest son compete. We were in the beer garden. My H had called and ask if I was going to go. I think he needed to know whether she could show up or not. I was kinda vague and then I told him I was riding down with his brother and my sil. It ended up I went with SIl and her kids and one of her friends who knows the OW well and doesn't like her at all. So I was in good company. He was distant but friendly. Had to introduce me as his wife twice. I thought that was funny. Had a good time but it is so hard and everyone that knows comes up and tells me to get rid of him that I will be way better off. Sometimes I know maybe that will be the case because maybe then there would be no roller coaster ride. If he stays with her he deserves the real her when it comes out and everyone that knows her says it will come out. I keep reading the detaching posts and I printed them out and it is helping to harden my self up and look more at my self. Listening to those CD's have helped and being able to post with you guys keep me moving a head. Not that I don't fall back.
