Why can't she leave me alone.... Pretend that I am not here.... ignore me.....whatever she needs to do so that I do not have to hear that I am the screw up in this M.....I really think that I am starting to hate her.
Here is part of our conversation from this morning:
W- Do I really get on your nerves and really bother you like it seems? Why? M - You nolonger get the benefit of the doubt with me so your actions and comments do bother me. W - Why did you give the facial expression when I asked you if you changed XXXXX diaper. M - Because it was how you asked it. I felt you were accusing me of not caring for my kid. I felt her diaper and she was fine. Besides you got her out of bed this morning, why did you not change it? W - You know you nolonger get the benefit of the doubt with me either. You still do not see how badly you have been treating me the last few weeks. M - How have I been treating you? I stay out of your way and try not to engage you in conversation? How am I treating you badly? W - All those mean things you said to me the otherday(referring to her walking in on me venting when I thought she had left for the day) And you yelling at me on the phone the other day. M - I said those things when I believed you to not be around and our conversation on the phone the otherday you raised your voice to me and sucked me into an argument.
The conversation continued to her blaming me for driving her towards D because I kept screwing up over the last 6 months... I told her that she has been gone ever since she fell in love with OM. I did not push her to him. What was I supposed to do sitback and let my W run around on me?
Some of my mistakes over the last few months from my W's point of view: - Asking her to leave the house while A continued. - Accused her of being with OM. - Snooped and found proof she a R with OM.(Invasion of privacy.) - I talked to OM W.
I don't know anymore....this just seems to get worse as time goes on. I really think that this might get uglyer than it already is.
One thing that I have noticed is that my W's venom seems to come out after I have a goodtime with our girls while she is at work. Last night I went to the fair again with my friend as his kids. We had a great time. Today, I get this. This past weekend I brought our girls away for the weekend and had a great time. Then I get the wonderful converastion on my cell phone Monday night. The first time I brought my girls camping, I got yelled at by her while she was still at work because I had my girls at my parents house after we got home from camping.
Is this is a pattern that I should expect her to follow? This really sucks. This the bed that she laid and it gets taken out on me. I really hope this gets easier quickly.
