After that I realized that I really had backslid on my detaching, and it is funny that it was right after I posted that to you.
I told my girlfriend, it is almost like I needed him to say those things though, although it was no fun when I was hearing it, I know now that I needed to hear it. I was starting to spend so much time on looking at the small signs for reassurance he was coming back. I was spending all my time thinking about my next move, and what I was going to do to get him back.
Now, I am really working on detaching and doing it for me, not to get him back. I need to detach and work on me.
Taking the kids out of town to our old stomping grounds, to visit my best friend (who without I would not have made it this far), and we are going to hang out by the pool and just have fun.
H is not happy, I think he wanted the kids tonight, but since he had not spoken up I made plans, so now he is settling with getting them for a few hours Sunday after church. They all start school on Monday so I need to get them back in time for baths, and bed time. He mentioned today when he dropped off their swim stuff that was at his house that he wants the baby on Sunday night until Monday when he goes to work at 1 but I told him not a good idea. I have a hard time not having my baby with me hear at night, plus I think the other kids might get upset if he only takes the baby and not them, and I will mention that to him. Anyways I am rambling, thanks for the support, I don't know what I would not do without all my new friends on this board.
