He is on a trip with OW. He has not contacted my children.

Divorce is continuing ....

H eventually paid the mortgage right before he left on his trip..... a day before it went into collections

I'm scared. My feelings for my H are dying. There is not that much fight in me left.

I want to continue my stand for my marriage, but I am tired.

Me: 45
H: 43
Married: 19 years
Dated 05 years
Bomb: 11/06 OW - "I love her, but still want you as my friend"

Kids: 16 (s)
13 (d)
2 (d)

"If god is for us, who can be against us"