cat03, I'm sorry you are going through this again. To some degree I can understand the elation of things going so well and then...
As Aud31 said, and you mentioned, there are more successes here than failures. For me, the success was/is in finding me again, rebuilding relationships with my children, family and friends, and getting back on track in pursuing my mission.
If that were to create a new and vibrant marriage with my STBXW, that would be great, especially for my kids.
One thing is for sure, in looking back over your posts, you are so much stronger now, even in the midst of this then you were. Why am I hearing SuperGirl by Krystal Harris right now. =)
I deal with ADHD as well. I was on ritalin as a kid, my mother took me off because it made me a "zombie", in her words. Reading what you have had to deal with due to his issue motivates me to stay on track in addressing this issue for myself.