Like we never loved before 4

[bright 2 morro]

My H talked to me last night. He told me he was really afraid. I asked him what he was afraid of. He is afraid of leaving the kids, upsetting the kids, staying here for the wrong reasons, leaving and still not being happy, making the wrong decision about staying or leaving.

Right now he has the weight of the world on his shoulders and can not choose which way to go because no matter which path he chooses the weight may be to much to bare.

I basically just listened and told him that I could not even imagine what he was going through. I did tell him that he has control over his own fate. That no matter what he chooses he is the only one who can make that work. But that he has to be willing to do whatever it takes to make happiness. I told him that I still have hope for our marriage, because there is still a lot of love between us. I still love him and he agreed that he still loved me but he was just unhappy. So I still have hope.

I told him I would be there for him if he needs me and I want to help him. I then told him that over the last three days I have had to learn that I have to be happy with myself before I can be happy with life around me. And that that is the key to being truly happy.

He started to cry and told me that it was easier for me because I was not choosing to leave the kids. I tried to talk to some more and he just said that he could not talk at that moment and he left my room.

I actually let him go I did not chase after him, I went to bed and fell asleep.

Mimi