back to square -1 or -10000

[cat03]

thanks JD, I did the frowned-upon anti-db thing, I called her. For better or worse I kept getting her voice mail.
Without utteting one insult (I still can't believe that one) I told her I was his wife, that he was still married (she thought he was divorced) that he had lied to her and that i thought she might like to know, that maybe she didn't care, but that i wasn't going to let my dh have his cake in the event i took him back.

Told her that i wouldn't respond if she called, not to bother. And I finished with telling her that messing with a separated man (back in 2005) was messing with a married man, that is WRONG.

What timing, Jay Lenos's musical Fuel just sang a song that said exactly what i feel:

ay it to my face
Look me in the eyes
And say what you have to say
You know we can't erase
These words before they bind
And turn the final page

Ah, here comes alone again

Coz everything's broken
everything's vacant
everything's wasted time again
Sentiments, hopeless
Innocence, jaded
everything's wasted time again

And so we leave this stage
And all our best written lines
and all the acts we played
so, say you want to leave
and say we'd never have
the way we always hope and we'd cry

And say hello to alone again

Coz everything's broken
everything's vacant
everything's wasted time again
Sentiments, hopeless
Innocence, jaded
everything's wasted time again

Someday we might find
(someday we will find)
some sacred place in time
(yeah, in time)
but until then
all will share
our dreams we left behind