How Can I Possibly Restore THIS?

[JustDucky]

I really do not feel like a "victim", but I DO feel like I am the latest person that my H has decided to shut out of his life by choosing not to communicate. As long as he does not have to see me, or talk to me (or the MC), then he doesn't have to hurt. So, the door gets closed. He does not seem to think that HE could have made different choices as far as the M went, either. He "did his best", and it wasn't good enough, so "good-bye, adios, see ya."

If I could take back my asking him to leave, I would, in a heartbeat. The request was born from frustration and fatigue AT THAT MOMENT. The same scenarios played over and over with the same result every time. (I believe, that in some circles, they call that insanity.... doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different result.)

So now it is Friday night, and I am reading DBusting. Most of the time I am crying. I can see so many familiar sitch's as I read, and feel horrible. Horrible because that is what our M became, and horrible because at this point in time, no clear remedy. Except to let him go, live my life and do what I want.

But that brings up a question. I got to thinking... should I call him and ask him if he would be interested in learning how to get along... even cordially? Or am I setting myself up here..... (Yeah, I have trouble with the concept of letting go...)

Any thoughts would be appreciated.