It is typical for you to have these feelings when things are better. It's as if you were so focused on fixing your marriage that you couldn't think about OW then. But now that things are better, the haunting happens.
Saffie and I went through that and had some good conversations about that. You can search for Saffie's thread and I had one too on healing from infidelity. It is a process and it does take time. But it gets better. For me, it has finally gone away. But I was able to keep reassuring myself because my husband was around. You are alone, so it is harder.
