alright maybe my pma is on its way back up. nothing with the w of course. i got the job and it is great, a little pay cut the first year but an option to buy him out in 5. got a look at the books and i like what i see. so stoked.
i'm riding cloud 9 right now. only thing that sucks is i don't have the w to call and say put on the cute little black cocktail dress we are going to the best place in town. oh shucks, i guess it goes that way. haha.
well no contact yesterday or today after the big talk that went horrible on wed. at this point i really don't care and i'm starting to think i'd be better off. i know better then to say those things, but for the first time i feel like i'm going to be ok.
ic session had some good points and they sort of follow the db'ing efforts, but i need to back off big time, i'm just pushing her out the door. i also need to decide what i want. ch. 1 i guess again. i'm not sure i want to deal with it anymore.
funny thing is, i stayed home from work today, just didn't feel so hot this morning. not the typical call in sick person and i could have made it through it but with everything else i just gave in. so i'm sitting there watching the tv, and guess who drives buy. i couldn't believe it, what is she doing. didn't stop, no way she could tell i was home the car was in the garage. all i can figure is her guilt, sentiment, whatever is killing her and she is driving by seeing if she can even look at the house to make it work. any thoughts???
