I should have given a little more background about my H and his responses in general. He is the king of middle of the road & indecision. A favorite response of his that I & friends used to joke around with him about is if you ask him if he likes something, he would often respond "I don't not like it". So knowing what I know of him, his response was a "no" - just a indirect & disguised "no". While I take full responsibility for our communication breakdown - I also think this is a big part of it. I often feel like he doesn't/can't tell me his true feelings or opinions. And it is not just me, it is that way with our friends/family as well...
You guys are both right, that he could change his mind - but after what I have experienced so far I am definately not going to get my hopes up. Like I said, my hopes are diminishing day after day - which I guess is good in way b/c hopefully that means I am getting more OK & stronger each day?
He has not gone back to see the C again. It is just seperate IC that we are each doing (not MC). But he has told me that he has another appt. He didn't tell me when it is, but I saw a paper lying around with the 23rd written on it - so nothing is going to be happening quickly. He has asked me about my sessions & I have talked openly with him about them. He said, I hope you are not just focusing on the R and dealing with "your" issues. While he is right, I intend to do both. Also the biggest "issue" I have now, is the R so it is kinda hard to avoid.
He did bring up the book 1-2 times so I believe that he did read it - but not sure if that helped at all.
I am going over a friends house and staying over tonight. She is having a "girls night" so it should be fun and hopefully keep my mind off things (although everyone in her family keeps trying to get me to see her brother - we used to date - but hopefully I will be successful at continuing to avoid that!)
