H called and wants to talk over some stuff, doesn't sound like happy news. I told him I'd rather him wait to tell me in person since he's on the road all the time, he agreed.

Have a fairly good talk I guess. Good news for me, OW will be in jail for 6 months or more so he can't see her...sounds corny but I'm glad. I'm afraid if she got out she'd get back into her drugs and drag him down too.

I am not bitter towards him, I have read so much about MLC that it sounds like they dont' have much control. He hasn't been mean to me, in fact he's very giving...but that doesn't help the heartache. I haven't seen him in 3 weeks or more and I'm lonely.

He doesn't know what he wants. He did mention that none of his friends ever call him, which I think adds to his depression. I can tell he thinks nobody cares.

I've done nothing but cry the last 2 days. I know I'm a pessimist but I think if I could just allow myself to think that he's not coming back it'd be easier to accept...but it's not.

It's confusing -- some sites about MLC say to reaffirm you love him by telling him and it will help him, other sites say don't mention it cuz it pressures them...what's right?


H is OTR driver - 48
Me 49
married 24yrs
2 sons, 22/20
H going thru MLC