Still Tryin's new thread 2

[S.T. _I Made It!]

it's not that it's weird per say, it's actually "normal" for us. It's always been this way really. Our whole R just started out weird.

I was always the type to reciprocate what others would do. Like if someone gave me a hug, or was the "touchy" type, I would be the same, but if the opposite, well, I followed too.

So since my H wasn't the "touchy" type, I wasn't either. And really I do like being that way, but unless someones like that with me, I am uncomfortable being that way. I think maybe due to insecurity, or when I'm the initiator everytime I eventually feel like, why do I keep doing this, when they never do.

So I ask because I'm not really sure what the "perfect", or "wow" (as you mentioned in your thread) couple look like or act like.

My parents got D when I was 14 and I don't remember how they acted together when they were together.

So, I'm thinking that we've caused this lack of intimacy all those years and I'm not sure if it is necessary to "fix" it, or what. I would say that I want to be more intimate, but it's not a priority for me. So, I guess I should just initiate it every once in a while anyways because it would probably be good for us and our R.

Nikki...on the public speaking... OMGOSH, that is/was not me at all. I've HATED talking in big crowds, that is soo not my thing. However, as I've gotten older, I've gotten better. Especially having to play piano/keyboard in front of people, and I have sang for weddings (a few) but TALKING is definitely different. But I was pretty proud of myself! I wasn't even that nervous this time! I think it's because I've researched so much and really truely understand it and I LOVE it, so I really think I can do this.