How Can I Possibly Restore THIS?

[JustDucky]

Geez... tonight has been a night of waffling back and forth. There is part of me that is truly beginning to understand why H feels that he is done. And part that wonders if the vows we took meant anything to him. And I guess what really is bothering me is that the worst is over, but he's not interested in seeing things get better. "Just move on" seems like the course of least resistance.

I know... I know... I WAS the one who asked him to move out because I was so tired of the negativity. But I've gotta say, it really bothers me that he was out the door so fast! I mean, he could have stood up and said "No. You're just having one of your hissy fits and we'll get over this", instead of packing up and moving out the next day.

I am fairly certain that the reason for the silence, except by terse e-mail is that it is easier. No emotion involved. Just nimble fingers.

And here is what is really bothering me. There have been several instances H's past where someone (brother, son, co-worker, etc) have hurt his feelings. His way of handling it was to close his heart, and shut off all communication. Period. End of subject. I feel like his latest victim. And if that is the case, then my recourse seems extremely limited. It seems like that is the part I have to leave up to God.