Supper w/w went good. First thing w/made clear, this was not a date. I learned more about om and his r w/my w. I learned more about my r w/my w, some more of the things that lead to this. She talked about her trip. She was proud of figuring out traveling. I am proud of her to, wish it was under different circumstances. I told her my goal for the evening was to not push her away any further. Overall it went good.
Then I went to our bed as planned, she was already in there talking to om. She asked what i was doing, i replied going to bed. She left room with her fan saying to om i guess im getting kicked out of my room. I fell asleep guilty. She returned in about an hour, said some things and crawled in upset. Today I had a counseling apt. she called cell when i got out to talk about sleeping arangements. She wanted me out I refused. She said she felt secure in there she decorated it. I said i liked it to she had good taste and should have an interior decorator. It went back and forth, and each of us were right in our mind. After we where both crying I told her i needed to think about it and told her i felt like im giving up on her if i give in then hung up. I thought about dbing and Is this going to help or hurt our r. I called her back and told her that some things arn't resolveable and i dont want to damage our r any further and I'M SORRY i will go back to spare room. She said thanks for not letting her worry all day about it. We both calmed down and she payed me a compliment about the shorts and shirt i had bought for myself recently.
After Work today she was talking to om outside, pretty sure she went out back door while i was taking off my boots in entryway(front door). I got home at 4:30 she came in at 5:30 latest. 6:00 figuring out check book phone in front of me, om calls, I pick up phone and say hello can i help you? Did you want to talk to my wife? She's right here. He didnt say anything. gave phine to w. He called back in 2 min. wish i would have had the phone still. She answered and went outside. Later she said when she came in earlier phone had cut out. thats why he called back. I work the same hours all the time 6:00 to 4:30 not to tough. and who calls at supper time 6:00, guess he isn't smart enough to fig out time change maybe.
w and i went to walmart to get b-day gifts for s7. Om calls her cell while we walk dowd isle, he has a ringtone. d11 and i went down different isle while she answered it. Met up a little later and i said i wanted to go. She said if it helps i'm mad at him. We did get the gifts.
Going camping this weekend with inlaws. W already has it fig out that d20 and bf get big bed and we each get a twin. I'm not going to let that ruin my day I plan on having fun.
This evening evening i went on a bike ride, when i returned a good song was on the mp3 player so i went in backyard and laid on trampoline. Tree covered half the sky stars in other. is was awsome. Watched planes travel across sky. Then it happened, A Shooting Star crossed the whole sky that I could see with a bright tale. I got goose bumps on my whole body. then guess what i wished for. can't tell or it won't come true.
I'm on the roller coaster pretty down and out depressed, the star brightened my day.
I appreciate all of you guys/gals
Light Switch
Last edited by light switch; 08/10/0705:29 AM.
Me 37 W 37 D21 D17 D12 S8 grandparents 7/07 boy Married 16 yrs last June 07 Bomb dropped 4/07
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right-for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't", Eleanor Roosevelt
