i can barely keep up with my own sitch, so i hear that.
i went the c tonight, and he had some interesting things to say. says i'm making myself to available, and need to detach. doesn't agree with d, but says she setting up the sitch for me to push back to much.
he suggested that i set some boundaries on her coming over, just don't let her stop by, tell her that i'm busy and if she would lik some of my time she can call and set up a time.
told him about the swings and he said to stop answering the phone, he thinks she is being manic and if i respond right away i'm enabling the behavior and have to let her find her real feelings. he thinks she does miss me or she wouldn't be around all the time, but i have to let her taste a little of the single mother life.
either way, i really can't take much time with her right now. feel like she is mean and cold and then as soon as she needs money and support i'm there. i can't take much of it anymore, and have to just keep myself from filing at this point.
well the job prospect called tonight and wants me to come by his office a 5 tomorrow. i'm sure were going to hash out the details or he wouldn't be asking to come by. so tomorrow is my free night and i'm sure me and the friend will be celebrating our new deal.
just trying to keep my head on straight and try and think clearly. not doing so hot and just feel down most of the time. had a family event tonight and i have say it is a lot diffrent without the w there to help support and be there. well there isn't a soul left that doesn't know. felt pretty dumb in front of everyone, but a lot of support and way too many questions.
