Going to try one more time....

[COG]

Ali,

Hope for the best, plan for the worst. I absolutely agree that your M deserves another chance. But nothing is going to change unless you change. It's great that you are determined to get your body healthier, that's awesome. You also need for your soul to get healthy. Your H WILL freak out again. Unless he get's help, you'll be in this cycle forever. He's an alchoholic, maybe drug addict, it's a disease and he needs help to lick it. Find a Rehab near you and give him the information.

Hope for the best, hope and pray that he'll get himself healthy. In the meantime, see a lawyer, learn what your rights are, watch the finances closely, have a backup plan for when he gets crazy again. Keep a bag packed, keep kid's clothes aside, pick a hotel ahead of time. Be prepared to call 911 if he even gets the slightest violent with you, have him arrested and file charges. Be prepared to get your family out of there when he snaps again. It will happen again Ali, definately will happen again. Don't be naive about that, be prepared.

Also, I highly recommend you not have sexual relations with him until he's tested for STD's.

Hang in there girl!

Love,

COG