Thanks for this. When you are close to the problem, you cannot see any of the baby steps. W is with children now and I'll be joining them tomorrow.
Still intimate, with me initiating and doing all the work (but at least she is not pushing me away). Don't know if this is a good or a bad thing (is it chasing?).
I suppose we both get something out of it, but I would rather hope it isn't seen as chasing. Apart from that, the weather has dipped again which doesn't help the mood.
Another session with the counsellor next Tuesday. Not looking forward to that. I will put a brave face on and tell the counsellor that I am 100% committed to working on the marriage. Not sure if I add a bit about only 2 of us can work on the marriage (think that will backfire).
At the moment I feel like walking away, leaving W with the children and see how she copes. Suppose that is a bit of a fantasy, as I know from the books that that would be the worst thing to do.
We have a family holiday booked in October to Mallorca and I am fearful of breaching the subject of whether W is going to come (all paid for). If she says no, I am going with the 2 children and going to go dark!!!!! No contact at all during the time and see how she feels about that – once again, will that not place me in a bad light.
Sometimes I feel that I am running round in circles, getting pain and heartache in return. I know that the children will be devastated if either of us leave and no counselling can convince me otherwise.
