There has been so many little things over the 5 days I can't remember them all at once so I will post them as I can recall them.
During the conversation that I instinctively kissed her...a couple of things preceding that moment were: She said she felt enormous guilt for breaking up the family and also felt guilt that I could still love her and want her back. I hugged her and told her I loved her and she responded I love you too. Then the kiss and the crying and any prospects of further closeness ended there. She did say that even though she wasn't ready to receive affection in the form of kisses, holding hands, etc....that she didn't mind when I touched her....like putting my hand on her leg when we sit together....that she liked that.
So....it's like I have a genie lamp. I can rub all over it and then sit it on the mantle and imagine what it might feel like if it had hands. :-)
