Hmm. tough to deal with people like that. Interestingly, I read somewhere that they are the MOST likely people to have affairs. Because people who realize they arent perfect, realize that they CAN screw up, and so are more likely to avoid things that lead to it.
This is very interesting to me! If you ever recall where you read that from, please let me know, I would love to read more about this...for myself too.
You never fail to give me some things to think about...like, keeping the door open...I am always so scared to make any attempts or show any affection because the last time I did, he yelled at me, "haven't we gone through enough?"...kind of left me speechless as he was never much of a yeller. What have I got to lose, right? I guess I just don't know how to do this. It's unrealistic to ask him if he still wants to "work things out"...any subtle suggestions that lets him know the door is still open? I have been much darker than before...I was never one to contact him first, but my responses were much lengthier and in depth. Now, I respond short and quick. I think it has helped me because when our contact used to turn into conversations, I always felt bad afterwards...all I wanted was more, more, more. How do I stay dark while showing the door is open? Is this just an example of throwing out the line to see what I get...if bad, I just reel in the line and wait quietly again?
I will also think about how I can see H differently...in a more positive way. If we get the chance to work on M again, I will have a lot of work to do on myself as well in terms of trust and faith.
