Journaling: We had a great time last night with 8 or so good friends, old and new. It was fabulous to reconnect with friends from childhood and see how many of us are struggling to find our Path with Heart. It seems that the more sucessful you are in the 1st half of life, the harder this hits you!
Interesting this perspective. It seems that the more focused you are early in life on the typical goals (building up wealth and supporting a family), the easier it is to lose track of your Path with Heart. It is so well described by Karl Jung and exactly the path that he took.
Otherwise, yesterday was my and the boys day to return to Houston. We stopped at Blue Bell Creamery for the tour and ice cream on the way (unplanned, just pulled up the tour info on my cell phone and stopped off when the kids asked about it)!
I got in a good workout in the pool and on the treadmill(last chance before Sunday except for today which is not likely). My MIL and FIL called to wish me happy bday. They said they were disappointed that I did not get to see them on this trip. I said that it was just so hectic and with FIL's surgery/cancellation, it just did not happen. They obviously know something weird is going on in W's head. MIL (for the first time ever) ended the conversation by saying ILY. I responded by with ILY too. It is so hard not to tell them what is really going on, but I cannot see how this will bring me closer to my goals and could take me away from them.
It was also hard to avoid negative thoughts about W, especially knowing that she stayed so long in Austin primarily to spend more time with OM. I am not sure how much longer I can do this, but I am determined to give her space and time to find out if this is really who she is.
I thought again about letting OM's W know what is going on (for her sake), but I suspect that he has done this for most of their M and that she does not want to know the details. Again, it is hard to see how this could possibly get me closer to my goals.
Today, the kids are going swimming with their cousins and we will laze around and get ready to drive back home tomorrow. Dinner with family tonight.
Take care my friends, SD
Me 41 W 41 Kids: S9 S7 Married 16 years Bomb dropped 2/2/07 Still living together! current thread
