I think that was a pretty darn good night and that you did everything right! You kept your PMA, kept your emotions in check, let H dictate the tempo of things, etc. Heck, he even took you back to his place for some cocktails! That is huge in my book, and the fact that you didn't bring up the R/M or D allows him to feel safe in interacting with you, and it will bring him closer to you more and more. I'm very proud of you and the way you handled things!
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I feel like I am "home" for him...or what grounds him...if that makes since..and he needs that in his life
This very well could be, and if you continue to give him time, space, and patience, he may very well decide that he wants this to be permanent again. Keep being a fun, easy going, and great woman that he would love to be around, and I am quite sure you can win him back.
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i just wish he needed it more!
If you continue doing what you did last night with no pressure, I'm sure he will!
