Care, Congratulations on keeping your M together. You've worked very hard to earn your way here. I too am new to the Piecing forum.
It sounds like talking to your H about your ruminations about the OW is not helpful to you or the M, so it's probably best to discontinue R talks on that topic for now. What's important is that you're able to be positive and present in the R in spite of those thoughts/feelings. You'll just have to tolerate them for now while you work thru them with your IC, and express them here with us.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."