Thanks, NJ. I was on overload yesterday from all my emotion until I think my brain had enough and then I was pretty numb and stangely calm. I seemed to reach the feeling that what was done was done and I would handle it because I have to. I don't know if you're a crier like me, but wow, it can have such a brain clearing effect.
We are off for a few days camping so I'll look forward to your thoughts when we get back.
Why is cac smoking? Because he is addicted to nicotine and its effect on the dopamine in his brain. Also because he still sees being a smoker as his identity.
BTW Cobra, whether or not cac smokes is his call, not mine. I cannot force or cajole or nag or browbeat him into quitting. Only he can decide to quit.
