Lessons from a former WAS

[HBT]

GF,
I find you story/posts to be very insightful to say the least. I sincerely thank you for your strength to share your feelings and wisdom with us. It must be hard since you are facing so much pain as well.

As far as my sad saga continues; H is headed out the door and soon-this sat. He leaves me so confused even now, he is so damn hurtful last night and this a.m. shows empathy and remorse for 'what he has to do' to me and our family. Held my hand and said he's sorry. I think he's just trying to relieve his guilty conscience personally. H asked if "I'm ok" for when he leaves etc. I said of course I will be, but this isn't MY choice its yours. I said I do understand your in pain and its not easy for h either and that he needs to figure it out his way but he's had all this time to think and strategize his moves and I've had days! I told him I now know I can't talk him out of it and will pick up the pieces here at home that he leaves in his wake. I said I really didn't mean for that to come out to place guilt on him purposefully but it is what it is. Me and my beautiful family will be forever changed! My heart is SO heavy right now...