lwb, I must sound so much stronger online than I do irl. seriously. I should link you to the blog I started when I first found out...I have yet to go back and re-read it, but wow, it must really reflect the ravings of a broken hearted mess.
maybe I seem stronger now because of time, and its all just part of the roller coaster for me...you can see it all over the place, the fears, the self-doubt, the feeling like a troll...but then there is also the acknowledgment that I don't deserve this, the determination to move myself forward, the mama bear doing what's right for the kids.
thankfully I did end up sleeping some last night...not enough, but some. enough to give me energy to go to the gym (I really need that in my life) and be here for the kids when they get back (h took them overnight since he won't have them for this weekend).
take care of yourself. a pox upon both our ows! seriously, mine is a mom, too, and is divorced herself. I just don't understand how you do that to someone. trust me, I don't hold her more responisible than H, but she does share some of the fault as far as I'm concerned. and don't worry about me re-typing, I probably didn't type all this in the first place. I'm guessing I was supposed to do that somewhere, think I might have done a partial job in infidelity. right or wrong, I kind of just dove right in when I found this place.
I'm so sorry about your stepfather. good luck to him.
Mkultra, welcome back! thanks for the good thoughts on my grandmother. know, she doesn't know what is going on in my life, she doesn't need to at this point, imho. why worry her? my parents know, my sisters and their husbands know, but as far as I know, no other family does (no-one lives around here since I'm not from here).
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
