Lessons from a former WAS

[HBT]

w8ing,
wow, my h is beating yours to the punch-leaving this saturday!! Can you say mind blowing! He can't get out fast enough. I know all my emotions are not helping; probably pushing him but its SO f****ing fast and devasting to my feelings. So so raw. Do they have any feelings left in there at all guys? Really? I said to h that I know in my heart they are buried in him somewhere, deep down but he has/is pushing them so far deeper to not even try to see or feel them. Its hard to imagine anything postive right now, my entire life is about to change. Simply gut wenching.