Yippee 4 hours of sleep. The only consolation is that when I make it thru this day, I know that I shall sleep better tonight. I also have to work today and tommorow and I have my long weekend off.
Will be interesting coming home tonight to see what is missing, although I really do not see the pillage to actually occurring until tommorrow. Oh well its coming.....might as well as get it over with.
I am actually in a bit of better place than I was when I went to sleep last night.
remember they are just things. we could all do without some things in our life.
sounds like your keeping a good pma towards your end goals. keep that up, there is feedback just pay attention and watch for the baby steps. if your getting nothing still then maybe try and new tactic.
hope you get out fishing soon, i know a day of that is better for the mind then anything else.
hey...I got home awhile ago. Absolutly nothing is gone. I suppose tommorrow is the day. Ok. Then so be it. Interesting thing happened tonight. Guy from work is giving me crap all day. Towards the end of my day, as I am thinking about coming home to stuff missing. 10 hours without a smoke. Also found out today, I did NOT get a promotion I was hoping for..... wasnt really expecting it, but little disappointment anyhow.
So this guy is dogging me, and finaly I just screamed FFFFFFFFFFF ... YOU at him, and he has this suprised look on his face. I just choose to not talk to him the rest of the day.
The phone rings just before I get on here, it is him. "Hey man, I know you got alot of crap going on right now, I am sorry for doggin you all day.....just sorry." I was like, ahhh dont worry bout it, I was just jonesing a smoke, its not big thing, but thanks.
That was kinda unexpected nice though.
He also told me his lady was out with her friends tonight.....so I give him a little......."awwww man, this is how all this stuff starts......." "Tell that woman she is beautifull every day, even in the morning when her hair is all over , and her breath smells like crap.......tell her she is beautifull so you dont end up in my shoes"
Anyhow, I am going to get more than 4 hours sleep tonight, and what tommorrow bring it does. What wife is gonna do, she is gonna do.....out of my control.
Well here I am again. When I should be sleeping. I actually was sleeping, for about 1 1/2 hours. Woke up. Started thinking. Yes I have to get up for work in about 4 hours. This is getting maddening. I am so tired of it all. I am so tired period. Calling in sick tommorrow is not even an option, as I know she will be here to get her stuff. I do not want to be here for that.
I layed in bed and prayed for just a little peace. My mind will not shut off. I cannot get comfortable. I get up and read posts.
This from Sandi stuck with me:
"My H really is a great man. To some he may appear kind of plain, or boring, or even a little "simple"....but he isn't...he is a wonderful person. I have always known that, but I chose not to see it. I just wanted to see his bad side so I would feel justified with my bad choices."
I wish my wife would read that....... feel that way.
Or I wish I really had the words, and the nutz to call her out on the way she is. Make her at least see things from my point of view. I feel like I have been so patient for so long and it keeps going the wrong way. The last few days seem harder than it was in the begginning. Maybe I am losing it????????? sleep deprivation is not a good thing.
Thanks christarn. Well I just got home. Once again, nothing. Not a thing is gone? What is going on? I thought for sure that today was going to be the day.... this is kinda like torture.
Sez that she was going to come get stuff this week while I working, and 2 days in a row nothing is gone??? 2nd thoughts? I am sure to hear something soon I suppose. LOL, this is crazy.
Well my friend. When I dont have daughter and am not working. There is not alot of those times. Although right now is one of them. She will be dropped off here in about 11 hours. I kinda want to take a walk down to the corner bar, the mind is willing, but the rest of the body is thinking of going to bed soon......
I am doing ok tonight. Tommorrow is another day, it will probably be a great one too? right?? ha ha ha
do it for your kid!! hugs to you!!