No, just sending it to the C at this point. But I am pissed!! Not a good time for any talk right now.
I went to the parenting course, meeting him there. I was very stressed. It was a small room, and he had saved a seat. The whole first 1+1/2 hours was about the effects of D on kids, all of the signs and symptoms, etc. It was awful, thinking that he was causing all of this to potentially happen to our kids, when he KNOWS that fixing the R, if possible, is the best thing for him. During the break, I stepped outside and he followed.
H: Are you ok doing this together? Me: No !! Is THIS what you really want?! H: I am not talking about this here...do you want me to sign up for a different class? Me: No. H: Well, then I am going back in.
I got myself composed, went in and asked to see the instructor in private. I told her that I had made a mistake and had to leave; that I didn't want this, he was having an affair and maybe she could talk to him about how to tell the kids...
I went inside, got my things without looking at him, and left.
I HATE that my children have to go through this!! I HATE that he is not willing to try, for all of us. And I am beginning to hate him...
