please help with advice, new here, H in mlc

[HBT]

I am new to all this and have been posting in the newcomers forum. I'm positive my h is in mlc, I think level 3?, just thrashing at me to my core and dropped the bomb a few days ago.

Please read my posts if you can; any advice or support will be so appreciated. I don't know how to get my threads transfered here. I'm having such a hard time pulling it together. I've been told to come to the mlc board to benefit from the wise ones who have btdt, but I'm not sure where to find strngth. I am reading DR and also have BD but have only started. I read here online for @ a week. I am so very sad right now...