Shocked H in NJ looking for DB help

[Willing NJ H]

Heim, thanks. I was typing her reply as you responded.

It's strange, I know what to do but get all f'ed up when my emotions get running. I was doing wonderful and feeling great, until I found out that there was an EA with the OM where she works (she told me about it... it's in old posts.) I know I can't worry about the details right now, and not knowing if it was a PA needs to be left alone because it is also out of my control. I just didn't expect that from her, and dealing with it has totally short circuited my sense of reason / common sense. I read my old posts, and want to kick myself in the a$$. Lately I sound like the whining ingrates that I have a hard time dealing with, and I know the answers. You guys have told me, there's proof in success stories, i've even seen DB methods work for me! I need to get control of myself again. I set some goals, but maybe I need to be like NOMO and write a detailed list? Well, maybe I can get more into journaling, and less into coming on here in a panic and throwing words into my thread. I don't know, but it's definately time for me to change. I'm not in control of me right now, and that's not who I am. I'm known as a very confident person, i'd like to get that back while maintaining my sincerity.