Stories don't always end

[BeingMe]

Wii - 'fun' with one's H is a requirement in my books.

Aud - thanks for posting. Camping is such fun, isn't it, and a great way to bond with one's children while having a blast. As for the, yet another, major life decision .... we have decided to wait out this year, before selling the house and moving. My S20 will then have completed his Gr 12 upgrades, and extra credits and will have (we hope) have registered in the engineering program. I have spoken to D14 and she says that she will do whatever we decide, and just hopes she can get into the US Air Force cadets even though she is not a citizen. The house will also be more ready to sell then, with the upgrades we are doing, and houses sell better here in the spring. We may buy a house in WA, in the meantime, while it's a buyer's market. So, this is our reasoning for now. Sounds logical, but we have to be cognizant that sometimes logic doesn't always win the day.

Had a great day yesterday with D14. She loved the float plane trip. We found some lovely clothes for her first day at school (it's a tradition of mine that we always go out and buy a new outfit for the first day of school, after summer and Christmas break ... it's just nice to start the first day of school in a new outfit). We also went to the Asian malls, where she was able to buy some stuff at the Japanese stores that she loves. She takes Japanese at school, and loves all good things that are Japanese. She is a good artist, and a lot of her stuff is anime (her own characters, and story plots, etc. ... she is a very different kind of teen, so sometimes, it's difficult to explain her, and even her friends are really different to most teens, but really interesting and fascinating to talk and listen to). It was a long bus drive to the Asian malls, and then that same bus drive back to the city centre, and then another long bus drive to the ferry terminal (which turned out to be running late), then finally home, to where S20 picked us up. It was good to be home, but I really enjoyed our trip. We did a lot of goofing around (we share a very similar sense of humour), and pointing out different stuff at the stores, her making fun of me 'cause I hate flying but there I am in a float plane with her, etc.

H informed me last night, that not only will he not be home next weekend, but the following weekend, he will only be able to get home by Saturday morning, then he leaves again on Sunday night. This sucks! I am not happy, and asked him how we are supposed to be a family if this is going to be his schedules. This is one of the reasons I am encouraging him leaving this dumb company and going to the other, bigger and probably more professional company. The present company is small, and turns out they don't treat their staff very well. They took more than a month to pay his expenses (and he had to get his own credit card which he never had to do with other companies), and they act as if they are doing you a huge favour by paying those expenses. Good grief! He's not travelling to these out of the way places on a holiday ... he's there to work, earn his salary, and earn the company a lot of money. Ugh!

Anyway, I felt really upset last night after hearing this. We chatted a little on the phone, but then he had to go to bed because he was tired. I thought to myself that this is what our M is reduced to .... short chats on the phone (where we mostly talk about his job, and the possibilities of taking the other, and that sort of thing), and the occasional weekend (where I go out of my way to make things pleasant, and not do or say anything to spoil our time together). This is way too much pressure. I don't know how long I can handle this. I am so lonely, and I don't feel I can say anything to him right now about my feelings. My GAL activities will take time to produce (if any) friendships of a lasting nature, my long time, close friends are far away (and one has her own R problems that she is sharing with me, so I don't want to burden her, but rather be a strength to her). This news kinda put a damper on the day, but then I decided not to let it.

Okay, enough venting and whining! I do have stuff to do this afternoon, so will concentrate on getting those things done, and will do some reading tonight. Our friends arrive sometime this weekend, so have to get the spare room prepared.

Take care, y'all!