I would like to ask for a hug, which I had been doing in the past when I had been initiating - but I want to make sure that I don't come across as "needy".
CVA - I think I needed to rephrase what I wrote above. I didn't mean that I expected him to have a decision in 2wks - but that I would have thought he would have wanted to go to therapy 1-2 per week to help him make his decision (not going every 2 weeks).
People have been asking me how long I would stay in this limbo stage. Where he is saying he wants out, but not doing anything in either direction. And I don't know myself. I do know that everyday that goes by when we are like this, I find that our love diminishes more and more. Each day I find myself being more and more OK with the thought of not being with him anymore and that I am worried that it will get to the point where I get fed up. As much as I feel I have done so many things wrong in our marriage, which I am completely aware of now and remorseful for, I do know that there were so many things that I did positively for our relationship - unfortunately I don't think he sees any of that now. But I know that I have alot to offer even through my faults and I am wondering if I will get to a point where I feel I deserve more than this.
