Just a quick update on where I am, and where I think I'm going. The big blowout happened on Sunday night, and we haven't spoken about it since. She is back sleeping in the bed with me, but I feel as though there is a lot of tension in the air. Yesterday I bought "Stop Your Divorce" by Homer McDonald. Lots of good advice in there. Similar to DBing. I'm going to start following the suggestions immediately.
Also did my first DB counseling last night. I spoke with Jerry. It was good to get all of this out. He reaffirmed my suspicions that the OG is already or will become soon more romantic. Hate that, but won't dwell on it. He made some recommendations... focus on family and doing things together, try and get her out to dinner for her birthday, etc.
Not sure if I mentioned this before, but I noticed a few days ago that she had stopped wearing her ring. I took mine off this morning and left it on the bathroom sink. I'm intending that to be part of my As If approach... that I'm okay with the idea of D. She sent me an email this morning when she got to work "Did you forget something this morning or was it deliberate". Not sure if this is anger or disappointment. We'll see tonight.
Here's a good thing... There's a girl here at work that I've been talking to. She really helps to brighten up my day. Innocent flirting, but it is really boosting my self esteem. Overall, I'm feeling much better today.
