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[Have Faith]

Thanks Saffie;

Some days it is so much easier to have that happy face on then others. I really must have the happy face on regardless of now I feel inside.

Last night he came home about 1/2 hour late from the gym. He did call me and said that he was late due to road construction. I do know that there is road construction on the street he would take home from the gym. However, if he would workout at my gym, that would not be a problem. I soooooo much wanted to say that, but didn't. He could tell from my tone that I was not very upbeat or happy. It is so hard to be happy when I know he has just come from being with her. At least it is in a public place and unless they are making out in one of their cars in the parking lot, which I don't think they are, then there would not be much physical contact. But since this is a EA, then just talking and seeing each other fuels the fire. Plus who knows how many e-mails they send back and forth thought out the day.

Ok, enough with that. On to the positives from yesterday.

1. He called me to tell me he was going to be late getting home.
2. When he got home I told him I didn't know how much longer I could do this and he came up behind me and put his hands on my shoulders and asked me what he could do differently. Needless to say, I wanted to SCREAM, GET RID OF HER, but I didn't. I told him to touch me more in bed. It didn't have to be sexualy, just closeness. He said oh, I didn't know. How many time do I have to tell him this. Plus I have written it to him when we filled out our Needs questionnair.
3. He touched me one place or another all night in bed (yum).
4. I told him that I was going to start dance lessons when my golf league was over, which is in about two weeks. He asked me if instead, we could go play 9 holes weekly that night after work. I of course said yes as I think that he sees her when I'm golfing at league (which is tonight).
5. He just e-mailed me and asked my how I liked the touching last night. I told him that I loved it and it made me feel special and loved. That it was important to me. He wrote back and said that I was important.
6. No calls to her on his secret cell phone.

So, it looks like I had far more postives to be happy about then the one BIG negative. I read most everyones stich and sometimes it is so depressing as it seems likes these A go on for sooooo long. I know that he is addicted to her. I also know that he knows it is in his best interest to stay in our marriage. We have plans for retirement and such. He wants to retire early,which would be about the same time as me. He can't do that with the OW as she is so much younger then him. Also, I'm the one who has most of the money and have had a larger salary for many years.

I hope he comes to his senses soon.

Faith