Like we never loved before 4

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My H told me yesterday that he wants to move back out again. That he wants a legal seperation before he goes and wants to know how much money he is going to pay me. And stated that I do not needs to be fair and not necessarily what the legal amount is.

He is so whacked out. The C told him she thought he was depressed and should go on AD's. I was there, and heard it with my own ears. Yesterday he told me that was not what she said. He heard that it would make him think more clearly about leaving the kids and not feel so bad about it.

Again they only hear what they want to hear.

Ok, I was in a severely bad place yesterday. I was very depressed, and then he dropped the bomb on me that he wants to move out again. Of course not a great time he chose to tell me that. Then late last night I got stung my a wasp in my house. I am not sure how it got in but those little buggers get in somehow. It stung me twice, once inthe back of the neck and once on my shoulder. Could the day have gotten any worse.

So far today I am a little better. But I know it could change at any time.

I could not come here for a while because I was so down that I did not want to do anything at all. I would come here and try to read but could not post. So I did lurk for a while. It has also been hard because my H has been home and my IL's have been here for a month. They have been living in my driveway in their RV. While that was nice it did not give me much time to come here.

So there has been a lot of things going on. I would love to promise that I will come back here more often but I can not guarentee that. I have to live minute by minute, and day by day. I do promise that I will be in and out of the boards. I do like the support here and the appreciate the help that we all give each other.

It just gets hard sometime.

Thank you to all of you who read this post.

Mimi