Trudging up hill

[ediemarie]

One thing that has been bothering me over the last few days is the fact that H is insistant that he is in love with OW. I mentioned this in C yesterday at the end of my session and C said, "oh, wow, you really are in a rough place if he is actually in LOVE with OW" So I said, "yes, I am, but I don't really believe that h is in love with OW." She asked why I believed it and I explained that H felt he could not be with OW because his relationship with OW would be tainted if he didn't have me. My C laughed at that and said, "he certainly is right. His R with OW WOULD be tainted if he wasn't m to you." We did not have any time to discuss this because it was at the end of my session, but that is just replaying over and over in my head. I want to believe that he doesn't love her, but I'm not convinced...