The very fact that your wife would come on here and try to retract her statements and exhibit fear of your anger says a lot. Is this what you wanted when you first started posting?
Ugh. Ugh. This is just getting worse. My fear is all about me. It's about me. It's not about him. If I could delete the post, I could avoid confrontation. Or whatever I perceive that he might think or feel about himself or about me when he reads these posts. I feel like I need to protect him.
I saw a book yesterday at the bookstore called "The Narcissistic Family." It said it was written for therapists by therapists. Is this one that you've mentioned here?
I read the first few paragraphs and it was scary how much it applied to me. I intended to buy the book, but when I realized it was $40, I put it back.
Anyway, I suspect that these feelings of protection and parentification stem directly from my FOO. Parentification is what comes naturally to me based on my conditioning.
