Had a talk last night It was cut short, d20 came over for supper. She talked about om's comment women need two things love and security. She said om has love and doesnt think she feels he could provide security like me. She is still torn. She hates herself for bringing om into this. She said no mater what she does she is going to hurt someone Me or om. She asked me for a hug because she wanted to remember what one felt like. It was great, I hugged her didnt try to kiss her. She said he has more passon for her than I ever did. I said I do but have never known how to show it. She said on her triphome he texted her about coming to mineapolis to see her soon. She didnt say if she agreed. Om told her these where the best 4 days of his life. Om thinks or doesnt understand about d and custody, asking her to bring kids out there for half a year then back here for rest. Sounds like he doesnt know exactly what he is getting into.
I am torn about keeping my mouth shut. If i dont speek up and tell her she is the one for me and fight for her, I think that will hurt my chances later(you didnt fight for me). She asked me to go out to eat wed night to be alone to talk. I said ok.
I went to bed befor her and slept in our bed, I put a pillow in middle and she slept there also last night. I havnt told her im staying in there yet.
gtg to work PS one of my goals was to have her hug me or show some kind of affection to me.
