WELL MY H FAILED TO PAY THE MORTGAGE THIS MONTH. HE IS UPSET BECAUSE I HAVE REMAINED DARK SINCE MAY 08TH. HE THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE ONE WAY FOR ME TO CONFRONT HIM. IF HE DOES NOT PAY BY SATURDAY HE WILL BE IN CONTEMPT OF COURT. I TOLD MY LAWYER TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THIS. I WILL CONTINUE NOT TO RESPOND TO HIS ANTICS.
HE IS REALLY SHOWING HIS MLC COLORS LATELY. HE IS NO LONGER GETTING THE REACTIONS HE THOUGHT HE WOULD FROM ME.
IN ALL HONESTY, I AM GETTING TIRED OF DEALING WITH HIM. IN ALL HONESTY I AM THINKING ABOUT MOVING ON.
I AM NOT MEAN TO HIM OR NASTY. I AM JUST DARK.
KIDS SAY HE SEEMS MORE AND MORE DEPRESSED.
KIDS SAY HE HAS STATED WHAT HE DID WAS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF HIS LIFE. HE HAS NOT SAID THAT TO ME. HE HAS ONLY SPEWED AND BLAMED THINGS ON ME.
THE DIVORCE COULD BE FINAL ON AUGUST 23 - IT IS IN GOD'S HANDS NOW. I TRIED EVERYTHING TO SAVE MY MARRIAGE. HE CHOSE HIS BIMBO SECRETARY BEFORE HIS FAMILY, HIS WIFE, AND HIS GOD.
SHE CHOSE A MARRIED MAN INSTEAD OF HER KID AND HUSBAND.
Me: 45 H: 43 Married: 19 years Dated 05 years Bomb: 11/06 OW - "I love her, but still want you as my friend"
Sometimes life just seems to take weird turns....our H's are lost in limboland and nothing we do, not even going dark, will help them come out.
Is he still with ow? Is there still a need to be so dark ? Could you see him or talk without confrontations ? Just wondering all this, not saying you should change anything...
Keep praying, God is with you, I have doubted this for a long time, but all my friends here and God himself has shown me that he's there WITH us !
Take care dear,
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
I am so sorry to hear that your H is still being not so good to you. I still admire your strength to remain dark. My H has turned around and wants to move back out again. I guess I will not believe it until it happens.
You are not alone.
At least you are not letting it effect you. I am on an emotional rollercoaster. I have been in such a depression that I started to take AD's.
I am hoping that this helps me out. You are such an inspiration to me.
Mimi
Bomb 3/31/2007 Moved out 04/22/2007 Moved back in 06/11/2007 Wants to stay and try 09/04/2007
Your feelings will return. Since you are tired of standing maybe that is an indication that you must just leave H and your marriage with God. He is there to take over our burdens so that we can recuperate, right?
Take care.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
Well my divorce could be final Thursday. I asked for a postponement so me and my lawyer could come up with a divorce settlement agreement. If not we go to trial on Thursday.
I am scared, but ready for whatever. God is in control. I am still dark.
Me: 45 H: 43 Married: 19 years Dated 05 years Bomb: 11/06 OW - "I love her, but still want you as my friend"
