Sorry that your are here, but it can be a good thing. I know that you will have doubts about any of this stuff working, but it needs to happen. Listen carefully to what H is asking for and give it to him. Another good read to attempt to reestablish a connection is "the five love languages" by Gary Chapman. He has noticed some changes, this is a good thing. Keep consistant. Remember he knows you and will not believe the changes right away, it takes time. You did not get here overnight and cannot get out of here overnight. Keep working on things that you want to change for yourself, hopefully they will impact the M. Good luck with everything and keep checking in here, it will help to keep you centered through this crazy rollercoaster ride.