Don't listen to her bullsh$t. She is just like my H.
I try not to listen and let it roll off my back. It is just when you hear negative all the time about yourself it makes you think. Right or wrong as what she is saying might be I am still human and do think about what I could have done for her to say such things about me.
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Just like me, you know you put more into your marriage than your W did.
Yeah I believe that you are right.
True story about two people in a M that truely gave to each other. My good friend had a friend that recently died from Lou Gehrigs disease. He had a rare form of it that accelerated the process and made it much more painful then normal. His W was constantly medicating him, working him out, feeding him, you name it she did it all. My friend said it was a beautiful thing to watch. Near the end of his life when he was bed ridden he laid next to his sleeping wife in agony from the pain of his disease. He really should have recieved meds to ease the pain, but he decided to lay there all night and not wake his W. I guess he laid there bug eyed all night unable to move and took the excruciating pain. The reason being is that he wanted to give his W a good nights rest. He could not give much to her but he gave her all he could and that was one good nights rest. I hope I told it as well as my friend told me because orginally it brought a tear to my eye.
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They are trying to convince themselves that this is what that need to do.
This definatly was going on for a while. I was not the only one who thought this either. Most people commented after talking to my W that she was definatly trying to convince herself that all she was saying was true.
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Keep staying strong and hanging in there. We will make it.
Yes we will.....
I get my girls the next three nights which will be fun. Tomorrow there is the county fair that I am going to bring them too. DD5 has enjoyed it the last couple of years. Sadly we typically go right after we get home from our family summer vacation. Well no family vacation this year. Hopefully I can bring the girls next summer somewhere. I have actually tossed the idea of London about in my head. My parents never had the means to bring me to such places and I think it would be a blast for them to see real life castles and such. I know I loved it when I was there. I actually tried to get transferred there a few years back. I had the job if I could only convince my boss to let me go. Good or bad who knows he would not let me transfer. But it would have been fun for a couple of years. Wow am I rambling now....
I have no plans yet for this weekend but I am sure that I will find something to do. Since it is my W's weekend with our girls I probably will go golfing and hang out with some friends. Oh, just remembered my girls are going to my cousins on Sunday for my nieces 1st b-day with my parents. I do have to work some this weekend which sucks, hopefully it will be a light weekend.
My L is still out of town and I cannot get in to see her until the 22nd of this month. I have decided to get the refi of my house going. It will take a few weeks anyways so might as well start now so when I get my number back from my W I can act on it. No use prolonging this any further.
I had a friend today advice me to move out of the house, so that my W cannot use me as a babysitter anymore. My problem with that advice is that I want to spend as much time with my girls as possible. Even if that means me enduring my W's wrath it is worth it. They are awesome.
Tonight my W had our girls at her parents house, so I mowed the lawn and posted here a couple of times. I then went for a run and when I got home my W was home and had our girls in bed. I went in and said good night to both girls. DD2 is so sticking precious. As soon as she saw me she stood up for me to pick her up and sing to her. She could have been tired but she seemed sad. Can a 2yr old be sad? I really don't know. I sung her a lulabye(please do not ask me to sing because I cannot), prayed with her and kissed her goodnight. I always mess my girls hair before I leave the room and tell them good night. It is funny they are so used to it that they will do it for me sometimes before I get a chance.
