Journaling... Just saw H for the first time since he got back from tour. Why is everything soooooo hard? I get upset when H is gone, I get upset when he pulls away...and I get upset even when we have a nice conversation. I just feel like I will never be able to look at him the same or see the person I fell in love with. H was over to be with D10 and right before he was leaving, all 3 of us were making jokes and laughing. It felt so nice at the time...then, he leaves and reality sets in. It's hard to still have moments like these even though he is truly gone...
