Sounds like a great book. I remember MC recommended it, but I've never read it.
"And I represent the old him, the one who partnered, who "held him back," when it was really himself holding back. I went out and got a life; I was closer to balance...
This is exactly the kind of thing I mean when I say you are so much farther ahead of him.
I'm glad you are feeling better. Remember. this is reality, the better days, the good days.