my problem with the bedding is choosing something...I don't want to go too feminine, but then again, I should be able to go a little feminine at the same time...after all, its just me. I mean, I'm not looking for big flowers or the like, but at the same time, for 13 years I've been making sure things are fine for a guy, too. time to think of myself and what I think is pretty.
hmmmm....interesting dream. of course, my therapist would add that you need to get to a place that you don't need anyone but yourself. but the truth of the matter is, yes, standing on one's own two feet is important, but at the same time, there is something very nice about having a life partner. and finding what you were looking for in your dream, someone who would really care for your and not string you along is very nice. the hard part is going to be allowing it/having faith again.
never in my life have I been cheated on or treated like H has treated me. I think that is what is so shocking for me, that anyone would treat me this way, let alone the man I love/trust more than any other in this world. so will we be able to someday have that faith/trust in another man, should our marraiges fail? will be interesting to find out...will be interesting to find out not only if it is possible, but also what it will take for us to get there. not to mention, I've been treated so shabbily by H for a while now, it will be weird to be treated well again.
who knows what the future will bring.. in the meantime, sorting, cleaning, and rearranging is really therapeutic. and it does help us focus on ourselves, rather than our spouse. its about what we like, what works for us, without taking another into consideration.
good luck, and enjoy!
Last edited by morgan; 08/07/0705:28 PM.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
