Sounds like your wife has taken advantage of you for some time...Feel like a doormat by now and your still holding on. Been there and done that. I like you tried to save my marrige for almost three years. Mediation, from counceling, to one lawyer to two. The ending has it that today I wonder from all that I have learned how I could have possibly stayed with my wife who does not love herself and uses people for her advantage. The writing becomes very clear once all the emotion of the event dissipates. Friends come forward and share things you thought you would never hear etc... I am very sure the MLC is real from all the research that I have done.It still is no excuse for their actions and the disruptions that occur as a result.They are certainly cognisant of their actions but may be unaware of the consequenses????
I have to share the fact that I am happier than I have been in many years. The children have taken it very well and I do miss them for I do not see them as often. However, the time I do spend is of a greater quality with no frustration.Do what most do on this board. Get a life of your own and let go what you cannot change. This will allow you to see more clearly what you really have and what is worth attempting to save.