After a night of sleeping on things I have come to the point that she is most likely going to file when FIL shows up in 2 weeks. I don't think I will file, I'll continue to hold out hope. Maybe she is right, maybe she needs to file to see how she feels after. She already says she misses me, doesn't have a hard time saying I love you, so I know something is there for her. But she can within 30 seconds tell me she is totally empty towards me.
Well I DB my best when she is resolved to not change, which is good, because I really need a pull back from the sitch and with her doing it on her own it won't appear that I'm running off. I'll be fine DB'ing while she is distant, but she doesn't want the 1 month no contact anymore either. I have problems when she peaks through the door and I chase her back to the castle.
I think I'll go buy something to remind me of that analogy in case she ever comes creeping back out. A necklace, watch, something to remind me while we are R talking.
She sent me a text late last night, didn't get it until the morning. Just said to call. I had to call anyway, I wasn't able to get her car insurance in place, why am I still helping her??? I planned on leaving a VM, it was early, but she had to know to not drive if she didn't need to. I woke her up and she wished me good luck on the job interview. ????
It hurts that she wants to be my friend so badly, but not my wife. I'm going to pick up though and do what I want, if she wants to come calling, fine. Until then, I'm my own man.
